I keep reading about other people's success and I wonder when my turn will come and today it did... I passed the NCLEX-PN with the minimum number of questions asked, 85. One can be either 85 stupid or 85 smart, and... I'm 85 smart!

So this is what it feels like... This is what it feels like to prove something...  I almost did not graduate from my nursing school and to make it worse, a friend told me that my own director did not think I would pass the NCLEX-PN because of the way I was at school... Always napping in class, getting many D's and C's, and seemingly uninterested to learn. Well I guess he was wrong. I am wrong. I always had a doubt in my mind if I can do this but that ends today. I am truly blessed, I had prayed every night for this, to help me remember, and to help me succeed. It may sound like bull to some of you, but this is what gives me hope everytime.

This isn't the end of my nurse-schooling, I still have a long way to go. I feel more ready to go all the way to an RN degree. I love this moment, I feel like I can do anything... And I will!

I have some adrenaline rush going through me at the moment!  For 5 long weeks, I was going insane, wondering if I had passed or not and now the wait is finally done! This morning might have been disappointing but I won't let anything and anyone ruin this for me.

P.S. Thank you to all who believed in me and to all who supported me!

Engagement.

Yesterday at work I got a missed call from Dean so I called him back. He asked me if Cory had called me and I said no and he said Cory called him and his mom and told them that he wanted to have dinner with all of them and my family around December. He asked why and Cory said he has an announcement to make. I thought it was very nice that Cory had been planning how to ask me to marry him...  But we are not ready yet so I told his dad not to worry about him and I rushing into it.

Cory and I talked today online and he brought it up but I had to tell him that he is rushing... So he got disappointed... But I assured him that I love him and I am his girl forever.  He said when he comes home he is going to come to my house more often and talk with my parents.

Anyway I've been smiling about it since yesterday... I love the fact that he's been thinking about it and planning to do things to suprise me and impress me. I love him so much!!!

Independence.

I'm hoping for the best... like always.

It's almost March 2009. Cory's in his 3rd month being deployed... few more months before he comes home. Hehehe. I can't wait for what the future will bring.  But someday, in some way, we will be together... in Texas lol. He and I have been looking for colleges there for me to transfer to in the future when he gets home from Iraq. We can't stand missing each other anymore for that long so we will find a way to be together.  I LOVE YOU CORY VERY MUCH!!!

Working out is fun!!!

I registered at LA Fitness, expensive, but I could afford it so I did. My monthly is good, $29.99. Anyway, today was my first day there, I had a good work out on my lower body but I have to get used to the smell of other people's sweat. Better to smell it than to taste it.  I was only there for an hour because I felt a little dizzy... I didn't eat breakfast, that's why.

I'm going there again on thursday.  I wish I could go tomorrow but I have no time... Clinical from 7:00am-2:30pm (hopefully 2:30pm and not 3~) then work from 3:00pm-closing. I could try going there after work but I might just pass out.